We tend to look at our lives using only one set of rules; our own. What we say, what we do. Our relationships, romantic or otherwise, we observe and evaluate them in what is essentially a one-sided affair. It’s not wrong in any sense. After all, everyone has a different set of beliefs and principles. What we see and feel and experience is entirely up to us to interpret, and if someone enquires our opinion about something, we express it. It is their choice to accept or deny it. So when a situation presents itself, requiring us to look at it from another angle, or from someone else’s eyes, often times we are surprised by what we find. Often times, we are shocked or even humbled, that the things we perceive to be true and irrefutable, is in fact, refutable.
I think I’m on a sugar high, if there even is such a thing. We used to have a housemate who would go berserk if he had one too many drinks that had high sugar content in it. Two glasses of teh O ais, and he’s off. But even then, I wondered if the phrase actually had any meaning to it. And here I am, stuffed from finishing a one-and-a-half liter (or is it spelled “litre”?) bottle of Lipton’s Ice Mango Tea. Warm water just doesn’t cut it anymore. Even at the very least, it has to be ais kosong. A cold drink. Of course, being in Cyberjaya requires that cold drinks be a necessity. So, yeah.
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I miss my camera. Even though it was a very bad investment (most things bought on impulse tend to be that way), it became an outlet of sorts for me to try something new, something that forced me to think outside the box. I try to find something different, or to try and look at something that is conventional from a different point of view, but my works have so far been just an exercise in conventionality, varnished by layers of filters. I want the camera back. I want to go back to that act of noticing everything, seeing details that would otherwise just be taken for granted.
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I miss writing. I have to write more. Yeah.
